I’ve decided to take another leap in life. I’ve made the decision to end my decade-long (!) career as a nanny. I will be moving on to do a 200-hour Yoga Teacher Training (YTT, going forward). Since I made the decision, I’ve had a lot of great feelings about it – excitement, a light at the end of the tunnel – and some not so great ones – fear, insecurity.
One thing that has been bouncing around my head: has this been right in front of me all along? Could I not see the forest for the trees?
I love yoga. I love the atmosphere. I love the people. It helps my migraines, my occasional back/neck stiffness. It calms me, centers me. It helps me come from a loving, kind place – which at times is very difficult to do. I always invite people to come to a class with me. I offer advice on poses and stretches people can do if they’re experiencing some type of discomfort. I’ve taught poses to my niece. “Breathe Love” is the place I like to settle into. I’ve been doing it seriously for at least 4 years, at most 7. And more than anything: when I told people this was what I was going to pursue, the overwhelming response was, “well, yeah, duh, that’s perfect for you!” and “Of COURSE this. Yes, go! Do!”
While that was all super encouraging and positive, I can’t help but to think…if everyone saw it, why didn’t I? Or maybe, more accurately, why couldn’t I?
I could probably come up with a billion reasons not to follow this path. But it would all be based on fear. Fear of the unknown, fear of failure, fear of success (yes, that’s a thing!). But they’re just excuses. Staying in my comfort zone, in my small box that I’ve been in for the past decade, doesn’t work for me anymore. It’s become the discomfort zone (see previous post) and leaving it to do something big and new and scary is more appealing than staying where I am.
I owe the entire thing to my cousin, who has suggested teaching yoga on more than one occasion. And it wasn’t until this summer that I decided to be open-minded about it, and just see… (and this is even after rejecting it immediately when she said it, again). And the second I opened up to it, it all fell into place. Within 2 weeks I had been accepted into a program and felt more comfortable with the idea of teaching than ever before.
When the student is ready, the teacher appears, right?
I even tried to just be open-minded about finding a different path…not necessarily yoga. But like I said, it all just fell into place. And nothing has felt more right. Even though I don’t necessarily feel like I want to TEACH, at least after the training, I will know for sure.
The theme here is to just stay open-minded. Try the thing. Take the leap. Say yes. Do.
How will you know if you don’t try?
So here I am, taking the leap, saying yes, trying, doing. We’ll see where it takes me.
I finally feel like this is where I’m supposed to be.
So, Universe: Let’s do this. This, or something better.
This, or something better. ❤
Raising LeBar 